♥ anim na taon ♥

anim na taon na rn ang nagdaan
kay bilis lamang ng panahon
salamat mama
dahil wala ka man na
sa piling namin
alam ko kapiling mo na
ang Panginoon at taglay
ang kapayapaan ng puso
...

at kaginhawahan ng buhay
salamat mama
dahil sa patuloy mong
pagmamahal at pagaaruga
di man dama ang kaanyuan
taglay naman ang presensyang
kaylanman ay di magwawaliw
nakakamiss oo sobra
pero sa puso ika'y nanahan
sa tuwing maaalala kita
mamimiss ka
kakapain ko lamang
mga ala alang pinagsamahan
dito sa puso ko'y
habang buhay nakahimlay

mahal na mahal na mahal kita mama...

♡♡♡missin.you.so.much♡♡♡

 

 

 

[ansarap m2log n kapiling kta at c lola... :-) salamat Lord God sa oras na pinagbigyan mo ak muli mksma k c mama... ♡♡♡]

♥ Ala-ala ko'y Ikaw ♥

 

its a sad happy thought...

pano k b kkontrolin ang mga luha
lalo bukas ang pagalala namin
sa araw na namaalam tayo
sa isa't isa

yun huling araw na
muli tayong nabuo
na isang pamilya

pano ko sasabihin na
tama na tigil na mga luha
kung ang puso'y nangu2lila
sa bigkis ng pagmamahal

nakakamiss lang
kasi andami ng nagbago
at sa mga pagbabago na to
ikaw yun hinahanap hanap ko

miss na miss na miss na kita
sana makasama muli kita
kahit sa sandaling panaginip
mahagkan at maramdaman

mahal na mahal kita mama...
i will 4 ever cherish you...

 

 

Belskhie

29/11/2012

10PM

Isang umaga ng Nobyembre...

 

para kang nanghihigop ng lakas
ang katawa'y lupaypay
sa tuwing mumulat ay
mga mata'y pagal na
luha'y aagos at dadatal
sa puso't isipan ang dasal
pakiusap ulo'y lubayan
sobrang sakit na
minsa'y ayaw ng magising
kung palagian na lamang
...

ikaw ang sasalubong
sa umagang hangad kong
kay gandang bukang liwaway

.... </3

 

 

 

Belskhie

29/11/2012

7:30am

 

 

sa puso ko ngayon...

Andaming gustong mamutawing mga salita't emosyon

Ramdam ng puso ko ang bawat katagang papaimbabaw

Ngunit sadyang mapagbiro, sakit ng ulo'y naguumapaw

Datapwat bigyang medisina't maimpisan ang panglaw

Sadyang marubdob di alintana kung san nagsisimula

Sakit na ilang linggo ng tinitikis yakapin't alu-aluin

Taimtin na panalangin'y sumahimpapawid sa labi

Sa kalooba'y hatid kapayapan taglay ng pagsampalataya

Dinggin yaring pabulong na dasal

Di lamang pisikal na kasakitan

Mahigit ay pusong napipiit sa kapighatian

Hilumin mong mga sugat' bigyang kasagutan

Puso't isipang tigagal sa mga huwestiyon

Asaan ang presensya ng ako'y kublihin

Pangungulilang dumatal sa pusong nasasabik?

 

 

 

 

 

Belskhie

26/11/2012

1:15am

 

 

 

 

Sa aking ala-ala

Balot ng saya't tawa

Araw na ito'y pinakamasaya

Anim na taong lumipas

 

Ngayo'y nagbalik tanaw

Biglang sumilay

Kunyapi't hapit

Madugong mga araw

 

Pinagsakluban ng langit

Ang tanaw ng pangarap

Ang kulay asul'y naging pula

Ang puti'y nabahiran ng itim

 

Panaho'y nagdaan

Nasaring ng pusong aba

Kapalarang di naalintana

Kay daming nagbago

 

Sinabihan noo'y lahat maaayos

Sa tabi'y nariyan aagapay

Sa likod'y magkukubli't magsasalo

Sa oras ng pangangailan'y nariyan

 

Ngayo'y nagiisa

Asan kayo ng ako'y aluin

Kalungkutan halos kitilin

Karamdama'y halos patayin

 

Mga mata'y nangitim

Walang patid luhang bigkis

Sa pagparam ng ina'y nahapis

Sa pagparam ninyo's nahagip

 

Sa buhay ng tao'y

Salita'y kaydaling bigkasin

Tuparin ay kay hirap akuin

Sadyang buhay ganyan nariyan

 

 

 

Slipping Away...

Sometimes I don't understand the why and the how in life

I only presume that it is how life's supposed to be

 

But when I am abound to be alone

Loneliness creeping in inside me

 

I can't help myself but ASK

Why it seems they are getting away?

 

Or is it me that's slipping away?

How come it seems to end this way?

 

Six years ago they've promised me

A life support and full of love

 

Years gone by, they seem to be a passer-by

What went wrong along the way?

 

I was lost and till now still seeking

For answers not sure if worth waiting

 

My heart is wounded then, now its a process

Of healing and mending but still broken

 

I looked up to them as I ought to be trusting

I shelled out my heart and soul

 

But when I got back to the hellenic doom

Thought to have backbone but am losing 'em

 

It hurts deep inside to be puzzled and out

But I've to slip away the emotions

 

Maybe that's how it is suppose to be

My life wasn't perfect after all

 

I got hurt and wounded so deep

Yet I've learned to forgive

 

Forgive yes! forgetting is next to process

All this is like an express bullet train

 

They've come and go in my life

Now they're slipping away from sight

 

I don't know how and why

But they leave imprints of pain

 

In my heart I felt abandoned

In my soul I felt bewildered

 

It all seems all are slipping away

From my grasp, from my sight

 

Shall I be doomed to be alone

Leaving me as a wanderer



Belskhie
26/11/2012
12:45am


(For the people I thought would be with me no matter what but seems to be out of my sight and out of reach. I don't know what did I do or how it happen that I felt na iniiwasan nyo ako. It hurts when you ought to know they will be there pero wala pala. Much even worst when you can feel that they are slipping away or getting away from you no matter how you reach out to them and they leave you puzzled out and keep wandering what went wrong. Sometimes, its better to know they are mad at you; at least you know the reasons but anyway sometimes life is so mystified and you will caught yourself by surprise nlng. I entrust everything to God. I know this pains soon shall go away.)

Sip♥L

Bigo ako noon

Naghahanap, nagtatanong

Dumating ka, di ko hangad

Sumilay ang ngiti

Sa pusong pighati

 

Kwento mong pag-ibig'y

Kay halina't napupuno

Pagmamahal mo sa kaniya

Naimutawi kong "Kay Swerte"

Niya...Siya...

 

Sumipol ang pusong

Sana AKO na lang ang "SIYA"

Na pinaglaan mo ng

Oras, effort,

Panahon na mahalin

 

Pinalipas ko ang mga araw

Ramdam kong nahuhulog

Muli ang pusong sabik

Bigo ngunit umaasa

Isang araw, Isang gaya mo

 

Paglalaanan ang isang ako

Nang pagmamahal mong nilaan

Sa kanya na nilisan ang ikaw

Iniwanan kang nasasaktan

Minarkahan pusong sugatan

 

Heto't ako'y pilit lumilimot

Ika'y nabigo't hinihilom

Pusong nasaktang lubos

Sadyang pagkakataon

O lubhang tadhana?

 

Di ko mawari, di maimutawi

Sayang dulot pag kasama

Ikaw na sa isang sulok

Puso ko'y sinipol

Ngalan mo

 

Ngayo'y napapalapit

Tatakbo ba o mananatili

Natatakot ako nangangamba

Sipol ay maglalaho rin ba?

Magpaparam, malilimutan

 

Gaya ng ibang dumaan

Bigay ay pantas ng pag-ibig

Puso'y minsan pang hihiling

Ika'y di pansamantalang

Dadatal sa halip'y

Pang habang buhay

 

♥ Thinking of U ♥




Belskhie
22/11/2012
7:45PM

 

 

 

 

 

 



♥ Alone ♥

I only ask for a company

I've been distress in pains

Pains I don't know where

It suddenly strike me

Here and there

Like a bullet eyeing me

So hard I felt so weak

As much as I fight back

It kills me, drowning me

Alone in my ordeal

Alone was I

I only ask for a company

Lit bro used to accompany me

Yet I don't know why

He seemed so ashamed

He said yes but never did he

Alone was I left behind?

Am only 29 yet so empty

What more could've been

In the coming years

Where I may no longer be?

Shall I forever be alone?

In my distressful nights

In my longer days yet to come

Sadness feels thy heart

I've never felt so alone

Than ever I was filled before

Filled with life and enthusiasm

Now look at me, loner I become

Alone in my painful tracks

 

♥ Luha ♥

nalipas ang mga araw
sadyang kumikinang
lumbay dili makita
ngiti't dalisay tanaw

datapwat hagod sa trabaho
liwaliw ay alintana
alaala ng mga mahal
sadyang kasiyahan datal

napaupo napangko
gilid ng kwarto'y panglaw
kalagitnaana'y batid ko
rumaragasang luhang apaw

di ko maimutawi
sadyang puso'y tikom
di ko matagni
sadyang niloloob'y sagrado

tanungin ma'y sa kawalan
hantong sa isipang uhaw
kasagutang kinaitan
liwanag ay sisidlan

luhang batid ng pait
luhang hatid ay galak
alinma'y tatak ng puso
kahapon't ngayo'y iisa

lalakbayin tarik ng buhol
paralumang paraiso
sa tuwina'y pananabik
hatid sa kailanman

 

♥ A Beautiful Path ♥

A journey doesn’t end

When one’s life ends

It is only a new beginning

Very refreshing, enticing

 

It is the coming of God’s promises

It is the revelation of life after life

The path where we will be home

Truly home – no pains, no sorrows

 

My story here on earth will end

Yet I will unfold the glorious story

That my life could ever imagine

That no one ever know but God

 

My one and true God – my Creator

That besets the faith of my life

The one who comforts me through

He showed me what truly love is

 

Only few knows me well enough

But only HE knows me in and out

My heart’s overwhelmed

Overflowing with gratitude

 

For I am a sinner whom He comforted

I seek unto thee and He found me

I seek unto thee and He love me

More than I ever know

 

I am a child of God – lost and seeking

In wandering I find His love

In blindness I find His presence

In darkness I find His light

 

In Him I shall find peaceful rest

In His Healing hands I find strength

In His Divine mercy I find forgiveness

In His unconditional love I find my abode

 

 

5^th November 2012

Palmerston, ACT; 2:00 A.M.

Belskhie

♥ Suddenly ♥

it was dark
music's playing
i am lying in bed
i couldnt sleep
i am holding my rosary
when tears just flow
my eyes soak in wet
once more i cried
without any reasons
my heart only knew
I missed my mama
So much I couldnt
stop myself remembering
i missed her very much
all i could ever do is
reminisce' and cherish
our times together
is incomparable
i am longing to be
with you again
to feel your hugs
to kiss you once more
to feel your love
the most unconditional
i can ever feel in my life