I am on the panic mode now. coz with less than 2 weeks from now, I will be travelling to gensan via cebu and sidetrip to bohol sana. but as the days coming nearer, it seems that it's getting away from me. I had booked my promo ticket months ahead but until this very moment that I am writing this, I haven't book yet my accomodation in cebu nor in bohol. Now, I feel that it's so hard talaga to make plans. AYOKO na talaga! andami kasing kontra... :D hehe now i've come to realized na ang hirap rin pala ng spur of the moment. :( kasi yun ticket ko out of nowhere k lng nabili, when I got to browse cebupac website and had a chance for the promo fare, I booked right away even without plans of any itinerary or whatsoever. ayun. I've tried to browse over the net, may npupulot nman ako mga ideas and advices which is ok nman. Kya lng at this point in time, may mas matindi akong kalaban, and that is, MONEY. I'm running out of budget na coz of my medication. Yun allotted budget ko for my trip wala na ksi nagastos ko nrin sa pagpapa-check up ko at mga gamot. Sad to say, kinulang pa ako. whewww.. kaya ngayon ay hindi na ko mapakali. ang hirap prn talaga kapag ang kalaban mo na ay kaperahan, wala ka ng magagawa. so now, I am thinking twice. Haisst... bkit kaya gnito ano? tama o mali na ba ang mag-plano ako??? coz it seems that all of my plans just vanishes away. or ako na yun may problema??? i don't know... lahat na lang kasi ng plano ko hindi natutuloy o di natutupad. ayoko ng mag-plano!!! pero nakatatak naman sa isipan ko yun sabi samin nuon ng management professor ko na ' mas maganda pa rin ang may plano kasi kahit na pumalpak ka sa attempt mo meron ka prin pagbabagsakan ng pagsisimula mo ulit, may pattern na susundan, meron guide.' sabi yun ni Sir De Vega. :) hehe
anyways, what shall I do na nga ba? I am running out of money and running out of time na rin. Hindi pa plantsado ang itinerary ko. talaga bang ang sistema ko na ay 'BAHALA NA' movement? but heck NO! I don't wanna rely on bahala na. I want directions. un ang isa sa reasons ko talaga that's why I booked this flight. To get to know myself better at makapag-relax at unwind na rin. Hayyysss... mangyayari pa kaya ito? tskkk tskkk tskkk... lagi na lang ganito... :( lagi na lang si plano pero walang nangyayari.. huhuhuhu :((
Nun una, punong puno ako ng excitement pero sa lumaon at madali, hindi pala matutuloy... hahahaha nakakatawa nlng ang nakakalokang mga pangyyari sa buhay ko... kasi naman... :-/
One thing, I realized and proven to myself, "I CANNOT GET EVERYTHING I WANT in one turn."
Hindi ko na kayang pagsabayin ang mga gusto ko. Is this really a calling for a "CHANGE"?
Let's see... I am still full of hopes kahit may doubts and fears na ko nararamdaman. I know, God is within me and HE is in control of everything in my life.
So, till next time folks.... I can still feel a lit' excited on what's gonna happen... hehehe
WE WILL SEE.... ^_^
"Everything happens for a purpose."
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